i came back home.
on the bullet train returning from my hometown,
i read a book,"sweet hereafter" it's not a movie, it's a story written by banana yoshimoto.
hereafter means "raise 来世” she wrote it after 311 earthquake. for people who lost loved one.
i don't want let him go and i never let him go and i won't let him go though, but the story made me cry.
i love all her writings, especially "moonlight shadow." i read it 100 times when i lost someone.
so i feel again,
i love him.
no matter how much time goes by.
i love him everything about him.
it was bizarre,
i had a peculiar experience.
someone told me my previous life.
in our past life, we lived in Miyake (三宅島）island,
and at other times in canada and somewhere in asia
may be... china. i lost loved one in a river.
so i've been looking for him from the previous life.
who knows what the future will be like?
in the story,"sweet hereafter", heroine pray for her boyfriend's life while she got severely wounded by car accident.
まるで自分の子供のように 彼の健康 長生きを祈る気持ち。